I have loads of things going on in my head..i really want to delete all of it, so it wont start bothering me.

 

As always im a slow learner..and im not used to be that mentally strong as i used to be anymore... a little bit of things it can really put me down a lot. I will have negative thinking even though it might just my mind tat making it up or i will just get frustrated at myself  for not understanding how those commands/ things works..

argggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

 

i had to stay in office till 9.30 ish to finish up ~ wait not even finish up just to do it for my stupid boss to see if it works.. I have to do another type of house today..

and god knows wat time im going home tonight..

 

As for my colleague..he helped me finish it by looking how pity i am struggling so much.. Every phone call i received last night when i was still at work, almost made me cry..i controllable tears rolling down and i had to go do the kitchen or toilet to just pretend to wipe it off..

 

My boss did asked me to finish it at home at bout 7pm but then i don have a functional, proper lappy and my sketchup programme are not the latest, so i don think would be able to open the file..so mind as well finish it here and just sleep and relax when i get home. Honestly, i didnt relax when am home...

 

I went home without dinner..but i dont even have the appetite to eat anymore. I just took a warm hot shower, nevermind the hot weather now..and i cried a little while. (for no reason) and after that just made a glass of warm milk to drink.

and of course my ex-bf grandfather passed away and im not able to pay my last respect due to some chinese pantang-larang circumstances reasons.. ( health and luck)

 

But nevermind that, on the phone with my boyfriend which i have been waiting for throughout the whole day...i cried long and loud..- letting go all my sadness, frustration, anger and disappointment. He of course will stop me from crying cos i will have block nose and i wont be able to breath properly when i sleep~ which i have difficulties sleeping myself.

 

I cuddle up my bolsters and wrapped myself with my blanket with my air-cond on..in a low temperature.. and soundly fall asleep after hanging up with my bf. Not a bad dream last night..but i refuses to wake up so early this morning..so i snooze my alarm for another 5 mins and only headed for my shower..

 

I hope and pray for a better day today.. I need somone to cheer me up today.. cos i heard it some where saying tat smiling uses less face muscle than frowning..

 

its true i guess....and im dying to have a great laugh this weekend! In conclusion~ WORK sucks!

 

We finally got the itinerary for our family trip during CNY.. Hatyai here we come.

Most of the places on the list, i havent visited before...Im very excited. The only problem i fear is tat 6 hours on coach. Arghh..wat am i gonna do!

 

First time in my life, we are not going Ipoh during CNY..it felt quite weird but this is something different. Nobody will be in my grandma's house this year.

My aunt will be bringing her grandchildren to Melbourne, and my grandmother will be coming down KL.

 

I will blog my trip experience end of January later.

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Ohh about the Indonesia earthquake..i was so worried tat Bali will get affected. I fall in love with Bali, and it will be very sad if anything happened to it.

some of my friends will be going holiday in bali this week..he will have lots of fun..

 

Meanwhile, project is going rather slow..i think its because of the inflation. My work has been slow i think its due to the december, year end = Holiday. But in january, its also because of CNY. most of the contractors will stop working a week before CNY. My bf, Me and James also waiting upon our fussy client on some of the projects. Apparently from sis, he will call us to give us some feedback.

 

Anyway, my tummy feeling better after taking those strong acidolphilus pills.. *fingers crossed* i hope i don have to do scoping.

 

till then...