I admit i'm upset today.. N i'm hurt too. But nobody knows about this! My so called close ** don fucking know about this.

Im not even asking for alot of things. Am i being a ridiculous one here? To ask for someone who understand and really to be there when im down and depresssed...is it very difficult? Someone who can treat me with alittle more respect.. is it very difficult? WTF has these ppl went..

Fucking annoys me. All they care about is their fucking phone or watever shit is on the computer. Fucking tell me lies saying tat i didnt tell watever fucking how i feel. Is it so hard to understand?!? Talk without even fcking thinking..wats the fucking point of all these fucking architects studying in so called overseas...don know wat the fuck they learnt. All they good about is ask ppl to do things for them and fucking hurt ppl feeling.. All they do is fucking whine and complaint about others....

I was given a choice to make 2 decisions today. One to whether take up a new job which the fucker looked down at my certificate ~..and another is to decide whether to keep the feeling going? I don like to teach or explain things to others to tell them how to make me feel better. IM NOT A FUCKING TEACHER.

I don see a reason to teach someone who has been through so many relationships and tell them how to deal with situations like these..
When i talked, ~ don listen ..  When im happy ~ you don appreciate it! When im down...you fucking don care, and on top of that..no priorities and attention.

If i were to ask throw the question to other woman , is god damn obvious wat the answer would be... I don deserve someone who don appreciate me.
i mean in ALL ASPECTS. WTF for to be with someone who don fucking appreciate me.

I've finally bought something i wanted ~ not exactly wat i wanted tho... Not the XPS laptop, but a...
QuadCore with 22" monitor and wireless keyboard/mouse. i can even now type on my bed if the screen is bigger...tats if i can read wat im typing on MSN. hahaha

But since i have a new computer with not bad graphics card and motherboard according to my bf..my new interest after coming home from
work is to play computer games..

Need for speed Undercover.
damn good shit!

I used to get pissed with my bf for neglecting me when he is playing game..but now, we are playing together.
I just started to get use to the driving it properly using keyboard. Before that, i cant even drive in a straight road. Its terrible. I think practice makes perfect. In fact, i'm in stage 3. I bought a new car ~ Volkswagen R32 but not yet modified.... no Nitro and no big rims, AND no spoiler YET. But soon, when i start winning more races and have more $$, i will start modifying it. ~ for sure!

Now, since i've got my PC in the house, the next thing i need to do is to save money for my Perth Tickets for my year end holiday.. its gonna be fun! ~i hope. Cos my bf's friend said that, during year end, the weather in perth is hot and on top of that, they will be MAMA flies everywhere..
its disgusting. They will stick to ur face..and if u open ur mouth wide open, it might even fly it into ur mouth. LOL..
This trip havent been comfirm yet..cos my bf and i are waiting for the mid year MATA fair to come to test our luck if there's any cheap tickets.

Bangkok for holiday now is out of the questions since the situation at the moment is quite bad. Riot throwing tear gas, gun shots, curfew and etc..

I havent have a good rest last weekend, was so busy with work and site supervising. This weekend i want to rest. Perhaps i shud start booking for Fast & Furious tickets online.. Its so hard to book, moreover..the internet off late have been like shit.. slow is one thing, sometimes u even get DC half way when ure downloading something... argh! annoying internet. Streamyx have not been improving after all these years. Its terrible.

I've sent out my resume to another company today, to try my luck.. I think the day i say i want to leave my current office, my boss will be speechless.
hahaha *evil grins* tats wat im aiming for actually..
i don know why i don really like it..besides the 'No' benefit thingy.. i don like OT almost everyday. To him, he thinks its normal for architect to stay back late in the office..but i think its ridiculous. These are chinaman mentality. He himself comes in almost lunchtime everyday and he expects us to stay and obey him..tats shit Hilarious! Well, i don want to whine so much..i think most of the Architectural company are like these.. I'm hoping to work in a better one in the near future.

Till then!