To wingy dear:

2nd week and time is still moving in a very slow pace. For the past few days, lots of tension and misunderstanding happened. All these happened might be bcos of unclear messages given to each other n i didnt' do enough.. but, i do not wish to have any changes between us. I do care n love you very much n hereby i want to tell you the reasons of how much i love and appreciate you!!

1. I love you for the way you complete my thoughts; for the way we complete each other's sentences.
2. I love you cause you'll never give up on me.
3. I love you for the way you look at me.
4. I love your twinkling mischievous eyes.
5. I love you because I can't imagine a day without you
6. I love you because you made me complete
7. I love you because you are always there doesn't matter if you are far or near.
8. I love you for the way we had fun washing car together.
9. I love you for the way you send me early sweet sms just to wish me good am.

10. I love you the way you show how much you care.

11. I love you for the way we talk on the phone whole night long.
12. I love you because every time I close my eyes I see only you.
13. I love you because I trust you more than myself.
14. I love you for the way you make me laugh like a sakai.
15. I love you for your thoughtful and sensitive nature.
16. I love you for the way you perfectly fit in my arms.
17. I love you for the way you read my mind through my heart.
18. I love you for the way you surprise me with your small-small gestures.
19. I love you for the way you treat my friends.
20. I love you because you treat my parents like your own.
21. I love you for the trust you have in me.
22. I love you because you are kind in heart

23. I love you for the way you call up just to say hi.
24. I love you because you are my soul mate.
25. I love you for the way you handle difficult situations.
26. I love you for the way you protect me all the time.
27. I love you for your love for life.
28. I love you for the 8 most extraordinary months you have given me.
29. I love you for the way my heart misses a beat every time i see you.

30. I love you for the way you encourage me when I feel low.
31. I love you for your sense of humor.
32. I love you because you make me feel like a queen.
33. I love you cause I look forward to growing old with you.
34. I love you for the way you thank me for bringing in your dishes to the kitchen.
35. I love you for the way we get closer to each other after every misunderstanding.
36. I love you for your openness to try new things.
37. I love you for the way you pamper and spoil me.
38. I love you for the way you join me in my wildest fantasies.
39. I love you for your courage to be you all the time.
40. I love you for your honesty.
41. I love you for your beautiful n sexy smile
42. I love you for your hair.
43. I love you for the way you cook for me.
44. I love you for the way you suprises me with my favourite flowers.

45. I love you for giving me your precious time even when you are busy.
46. I love you for never leaving my side even when I hurt,disappoint,pissed you.
47. I love you cause I feel safe with you.
48. I love you because there is no one else above you.
49. I love you because we are two bodies one soul.
50. I love you for YOU!!

 

It's already the 6th day since he left..n this week is the slowest and yet the hardest week to pass. The time passes by extremely slowly..and everyday i stand infront of my calendar after cutting off the days which had already passes by thinking..how long more can i bear in such hardships. I didn't realised missing someone is so ever difficult. I can dare say that in my 22 years of life, never never in my life i had such feeling towards a person till now.. Is it bcos of me always have been taking things for granted tat never in such i ever care or is it, this is a sign which i had already found the ONE tat i really love n care..?!?! whichever is it, i will just endure the hardship of missing till the very last day..

 

I think the only weaknesses in my relationship right now, it's just distance.. there's nothing tat i can think of now tat actually screw my LDR besides distance. Being away from him, it's the hardest..i hate to admit tat i always give him worries and hardships. But deep down, i want him to know tat i do really care n always always longing to see him again. There will be another 3.5 months to go before i could hold him in my arms, kiss him n touch him again... His presents are always be felt, the touches, the scents of him, the voice of his ringing in my ears.. eventhough i couldn't see him physically..but i do everynight in my dreams. That is something very strange, i didn't know how i could do it, but  i could dream of him everynight when he's away..without fail!! It made me feel as if am laying next to him everymorning.

 

I hate to say tat, it haven't even reaches a week and both of us are already in some depressed state.. this sucks..!! PPl around me have been asking me to be n stay strong. best solutions are to keep urself busy, perhaps dear, you can go find urself some part-time job..guess it will stop you from thinking something unhappy. Am so sorry for not being beside you when you needed me to. I'm such a useless girlfriend..but i will make it up to you. Someday, i will never ever want to leave your sight again...my heart may be strong right now to bear such pain, but it can't be for long..

 

I want you to be happy...i do not want you to feel depressed.

I will love you Forever.

I can't just stop thinking of you..

I misses you every sec, every min which passes by..

till then..i can't wait to you again!!

1st Of August 2006;

 

After having my long vacation for 8 months, it has finally came to an end. Today was my first day of class. I was so reluctant to wake up so early today at 8.03am which im already so used to waking up late. After i got myself ready n then i then left to Uni at 8.45 which i thought i was running late. By the time i reach cyberjaya it was only 9.05am n class would only be starting not till 9.30am n so i decided to register n pay my fees for this semester which add up to Rm 5,534. Took me quite awhile to settle everything n i'm actually adding up to the queue. I could see tat the 'black' gal next to me, getting frustrated. hehehe..

 

My first design class are held at Architecture studio 13. I went up to the 2nd floor which other studios are located and i couldn't find number 13. hell ya..!! i was lost on my first day of school...then i met some friends along the way, which they themselves are lost n then finally we found our studio which are on the 1st floor..

Practically we're already 10 min late for class but the class was only half full. All lecturers except 1 are there sitting n waiting for us.. When i walked into the our new studio, i could see lots of eyes on us..n most of them, i already knew. I could see some of them waving at me, i then started to greet them with a hello by smiling n nodding head n found myself a place, a table n 2 chairs right in front of the lecturers... there are almost 90 student in this class and most of them are guys..damn!! Fadzil, one of the lecturers started to give an introduction on our outline and then suzy walked in. She was lost herself n couldn't find the studio. tat's hilarious..kakaka

 

anyway, suzy then took over and then gave out the unit outline and of course our brief to our Project 1. We were then told tat we will be going for a site visit  in Malacca on the month of sept for our final project. *shake head* ermm..next tues will be shah alam...

Class rap was chosen..it was mark and elizabeth. Then class was dismissed at 11 ish. fadzil came over to me and we chit chat for awhile and asked wat have i been doing lately.. i then told him tat i was freelancing and bla blah.. rather then just sit at home feeling depressed.. agree with me?? yayyy..

 

and then i went up to suzyto get her signature for the CaF form, n she asked if am going to be okay for this sem. I was like...erm Yeah! I had to isn't it.. do i even have a choice??!?!

 

by the way, i went back to the registry office to pass a carbon copy for the bursary gal. Well, i was lucky to get my stuff done before going to class, cos the queue line was longer than the ones in the morning.. oh well!! was still early, so i called annie and ask if she wanted to do lunch together with me.. while walking out to the carpark yacking on the phone...i saw this beautiful Grey R34 SKYLINE parked right in front of me.. i was like DAMNNNN.........wat a sexy mama. *grins*

getting all excited but of course, first day of school had to be in my best behaviour.. i just walked slowly while enjoying the sexy mama n walked back to my car. Saw ken n said hi..

he knows so much about me, thanks to chiun. yes ken.., im in the mood of love..could see from it from my face, it's glowing isn't it?? hehehe

 

headed back home and then only to midvalley to join annie and 2 of her A level friends to have lunch. I went there to get some stuff done first, before joinning them in Mdm Kwan.

 

Dear: the pic tat you took which we decided to make as a keychain is blur, she suggested to use another photo. And so i used the one which colin took at finnegan's. It turned out very nice.

 

anyway, went home after tat cos annie feeling unwell..anyway nice meeting ur friends..it just coolness to talk to them while ure in the washroom. LoL..

I napped..was so tired. Not used to waking up so early i guess..and by the time i woke up it's already 6.35pm. de-Blur myself and went downstairs..dad n mum came home after tat and had dinner together. Was talking about the first day of school throughout dinner..and yes..i will study harder n work smarter..!!

 

n now..dear having dinner with friends after his site visit today..n i guess we won't be chatting till too late tonight.  It's already 8.10pm n i'm waiting for him to come back n tell him all the things which had happened today...

 

till then..bye!

 

p/s: u know..i think tat knowing too many ppl in class is actually a bad sign..!! cos it shows tat you've repeated too many times..

i rather keep myself to be low profile..

-annie pls take care of urself when ure away to s'pore!